on cloud thirteen

screw cloud nine, i've surpassed that. this week has been an emotional roller coaster, straight up. i've never felt sudden bursts of happiness, sadness, frustration, and anger occur simultaneously before and it is maddening.

cheers to: my best friends, my sjys family, classical music, swimming pools, dance movies, hot dogs, ice cream, and singing in the car.

boo to: saying goodbye, headaches, not possessing the ability to burp on command, and feet.

don't let it get to you

this past week has made me realize how many male chauvinistic pigs there are in the world. first off, in the work environment. i mean come on, how unprofessional and ridiculous is that? to have the kitchen staff howling, hooting, and touching you in a very inappropriate way makes the work environment that was already stressful and tough to begin with, even worse. i'm normally a person who does not like confrontation and if it is something that can just blow over, i usually let it go. but this week, they seriously crossed a very obvious line and i couldn't ignore it. after all, this is my body and i decide how i want to be treated. you would think that after giving them several warnings and stern glances, they would get the hint but nope, they just leveled up in their creepiness and kept going at it. not only is this demeaning but disrespectful and very infuriating. my mentality at this point was that if they weren't going to listen to what i was trying to say, they would have to understand it at a louder volume. after my screaming session, they now don't look me in the eye when i talk to them and they make it impossible for me to do my job correctly. one of my co-workers told me to not let all of this get to me and just to let it go, but how can i? every day i go to work i expect nothing less than to be treated professionally and with respect but this is not the case at all. the kitchen staff are people i have to deal with constantly because it is a restaurant and i literally cringe every time i have to walk into the kitchen. no exaggeration needed. i mean, work shouldn't be like that right? another one of my co-workers, after carefully inspecting my face, told me to tell our manager about this. but i can't do that either. he would just lecture the kitchen staff and this temporary tension would become permanent. this kind of mistreatment may seem miniscule but it is not okay with me and i feel stuck. i don't know what to do.

and to add onto my frustration and very negative outlook on these type of people, the torment does not stop there. the other day, i was hanging out with my friends at a park and we were walking to our cars, a truck full of these bastards started whistling at us and making their annoying presence, very well-known. i was pissed, i mean are you freaking kidding me? where is your dignity man? you're what, 40 years old? and you're trying to get at 18 and 19 year olds? are you kidding me? is it because you can't get women your own age or are you just a dirty pervert like that? goddamn, grow up and learn some manners, please. and as if to add insult to injury, today as my sister and i walked from our car into the house, some workers that were straightening out my neighbors lawn decided to take a very unnecessary break from their work and started yelling inappropriate comments at my sister. ARE YOU FREAKING KIDDING ME? where are the decent guys in this world? i never took myself to be a misandrous person but right now, i don't think i'm too far off. so go polish that shiny badge of yours boys, you've officially made me despise the male species as of right now, congratulations.