oh how i hate disappointment

rant time.

why is it that so many people in my life are so freaking unreliable. i hate it. why can't you keep your promises or follow through. i especially hate it when people say something they either don't mean or won't do, but are just saying it for the hell of it. i hate words with no actions or meaning behind them. dealing with people like this just makes me so angry and frustrated. i can't even explain it. oh, and i hate disappointment too. i am a person who hates to disappointment people so i make it a habit to try and make everyone happy or to simply avoid disappointing situations but lately, i've been so disappointed in every aspect of my life. certain events, certain people...gosh, it's so infuriating. 

i just don't get it.

you visit me in my sleep

i've been having the weirdest dreams lately. they leave me feeling really empty, confused, and nostalgic, and the craziest thing is that every night i keep hoping to fall asleep and have the same dream. it has gotten to the point where i'd much rather be living through my dreams than in real life and even though it sounds super pathetic, it's the truth. one of my dreams brought me back to high school days and it was really nice to be back in those familiar classrooms with all my friends around me and everything just felt so comfortable and amazing. it felt so real to the point that i actually drove to my high school on the way back from work today to see if i can round up those same emotions and comforts, which surprisingly, i can. and another thing. this winter break is brutal. i've caught myself on countless occasions missing certain people or reliving certain scenarios, it is so infuriating and i feel completely helpless when i give way to these memories. someone help.

i can't help it

The Ten Most Common Hassles for College Students

#1 Troubling thoughts about the future

#2 Not getting enough sleep

#3 Wasting time

#4 Inconsiderate smokers

#5 Physical appearance

#6 Too many things to do

#7 Misplacing or losing things

#8 Not enough time to do the things you need to do

#9 Concerns about meeting high standards

#10 Being lonely

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