my goodness, what is in the water these days? lately, i've been feeling so content that i catch myself humming from time to time. on a impossibly lighter note, i've also been catching myself daydreaming a lot. now perhaps it's because i spend about six hours confined to a musty, old classroom when i could be elsewhere or maybe it's all this warm, summery weather that's getting to my head. whichever it is, i actually don't mind it all that much. these daydreams actually remind me of how lucky i am. my daydreams allowed me to go back to the picnics, car rides, park adventures, long walks, beach days we've had. today's daydream in particular wasn't as pleasant but allowed me to relive possibly the worst fight i've ever had with my friend. looking back at it, the argument seems rather silly and unnecessary, but at the moment, every word seemed scary and threatening. i remember nothing seemed to mean much anymore because we weren't friends at the moment. as much as i despise fighting with my friends, i am a strong believer in that they actually help friendships become stronger and more real. i know, sounds crazy, but it's true.
now because there are very few people in my life that i actually care enough to fight with and because i have trust issues, i don't have very many best friends. but once you're in my inner circle, sorry man, it's virtually impossible to leave it. these people are my people. they are my secret-keepers, my good news sharers, my listen-to-every-damn-rant-i-have listeners, my crutches, and just about everything else i need. they are it. i never needed to be reminded that they are truly genuine and have my back, but with all the crap that i went through with people this year, that confirmation is set in stone and all of the toughest materials known to man combined. and for that i am grateful and super blessed to have such great company.
thanks niggas, you know who you are.
