"screw what they think" "who cares?" "you think too much" "why do you worry so much?" believe it or not, i probably hear these four phrases more in a day then my own name. which leads me to this slightly terrifying thought. "what kind of person have i become?"
when i was younger. i honestly could care less of what people thought of me. i would wear what i like. eat what i like. and be whatever made me happy and comfortable. now that i'm older i feel like i have this wall up all the time that interferes with people's abilities to get to know me. the wall may lower from time to time with certain people or it might completely deteriorate, but only for a moment. with each day and every obstacle i face, the wall gets stronger, higher, and harder to break. someone bring me some dynamite, please.
today was a bad day
