currently listening to: secrets by one republic
anyone who knows me, knows that i am a person who shares what i'm feeling and what i'm thinking so frequently and with so much detail that it comes close to the brink of unnecessary. it's how i find relief amongst all the chaos, troubles, stress, and pain. i go to the people i trust the most, venting until i'm red in the face and after each habitual rant, it feels like they are carrying part of the weight with me. but lately my back is aching and shaking from all the weight i'm carrying and as hard as i try, i can't feel the same kind of relief. when you're at this kind of dead end like me, i guess anything that seems like it would help is worth a shot right? so here goes my rant. i am sick of going to work everyday, getting emotionally and physically shredded to nothing, and then crying on my drive home because of pure frustration. i am sick of dealing with intellectually stunted, narrow-minded, inconsiderate, immature people on a daily basis. i am sick of not being able to sleep because the thoughts in my head will not stop racing. i am sick of constantly being worried and scared out of my mind about situations that are beyond my control. and i am absolutely sick of having a trust issue so deep and insane that i start questioning everything and everyone around me. i've seriously had enough.
